Fallout: Siblings,Cry for Help
I just found this in my drafts, I can’t believe I never posted it. It’s rather like old information, not really current, but it is what it is.
I don’t remember how it began, but I think the tussle was over school work. Dolorosa, didn’t want to complete a science lab and spirally further and further out of control. The more we tried to calm her down the more she became exacerbated. She was running about, screaming, “don’t hurt me” almost like she was going mad.
Then I saw her slide a paper off my desk and head to the shredder. It was stuck between two books for me to find it. You have to understand that my desk is a dump all so the chances of me finding that paper within a day or two was slim, I think that troubles me the most. Fortunately, I had the wherewithal to stop her from shredding the paper, even thought I wasn’t sure what was on it. She, trembling, gave me the picture that she made and what you see below is it:
Do you have any idea how much I was leveled when I saw what she wrote? After sitting down with her and speaking with her, she expressed how she wished she could die. My 11 year old. Wants to die. Now I don’t think it’s a literal wish to kill herself, and she’s said that she doesn’t really want to hurt herself, but I think the expression of her heart is that she would rather die than continue the path that she is on.
She is so continually afraid that Vale is going to die that she seems to be beside herself. She sits next to Vale during the school day, so when he wears a t shirt she sees his scarred arms, and that troubles her quite a bit. She has a very sensitive soul, so those scars are a constant reminder of the distress that Vale is in.
Yes, of all my children, Dolorosa is the most dramatic. Yes, of all of them she would be the most sensitive, she can’t watch Monsters, Inc. because it’s too frightening for her. But still…to have such a heavy impact. Vale’s perp damaged that precious child so badly, but he’s damaged so many other people as well. It’s as if he shot Vale with scatter shot, and we are all collateral damage.