May 2011
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Twitter!
Link: Twitter! We started a twitter account for FTB~FTM. Thought more of you would follow the tweets because it would be more anonymous for you. Ask questions! Give suggestions! Spread the word!
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Twitter! →
We started a twitter account for FTB~FTM. Thought more of you would follow the tweets because it would be more anonymous for you. Ask questions! Give suggestions! Spread the word!
April 2011
82 posts
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By the way...
Thank you to all of you who ‘liked’ our page on Facebook! We have over 25 likes now, so we have our own identity on Facebook!!! Hopefully that will allow us to reach more families. We really appreciate your helping us reach that modest goal. Didn’t see our facebook page? Check us out! Think we should set up a twitter account too?
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By the way...
Thank you to all of you who ‘liked’ our page on Facebook! We have over 25 likes now, so we have our own identity on Facebook!!! Hopefully that will allow us to reach more families. We really appreciate your helping us reach that modest goal.
Didn’t see our facebook page? Check us out!
Think we should set up a twitter account too?
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Easter
Oh yes, Easter was an interesting day. To say it was vastly non typical for us.. yeah, well it was. Due to the fact that we’re Polish, not to mention our belief in Jesus Christ and His resurrection from the dead, Easter tends to be a big holiday for us. I make two different types of bread and assemble this special Easter basket that the contents are used for our breakfast. Ordinarily I love...
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Easter
Oh yes, Easter was an interesting day. To say it was vastly non typical for us.. yeah, well it was. Due to the fact that we’re Polish, not to mention our belief in Jesus Christ and His resurrection from the dead, Easter tends to be a big holiday for us. I make two different types of bread and assemble this special Easter basket that the contents are used for our breakfast. Ordinarily I...
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Sleep Deprived
I’m starting to get kind of worried about the lack of sleep. Yesterday I had to take Vale to a medicine check with his psychiatrist (which is over 2 hours away, and it’s a little ridiculous). I ended up going the wrong way, which in of itself is annoying but not a huge deal. But when I started speculating that I was going the wrong way, I was completely unsure as to where I was or which...
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Sleep Deprived
I’m starting to get kind of worried about the lack of sleep. Yesterday I had to take Vale to a medicine check with his psychiatrist (which is over 2 hours away, and it’s a little ridiculous). I ended up going the wrong way, which in of itself is annoying but not a huge deal. But when I started speculating that I was going the wrong way, I was completely unsure as to where I was or...
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“Hey, you don’t have to post this or anything, but I wanted to tell you that I...”
– “Hey, you don’t have to post this or anything, but I wanted to tell you that I understand what you’re going through, and I nearly envy you. You are so, SO strong and brave for getting help, it’s amazing. Inspirational even.I also started self-injuring when I was around 14, it may have been 13 I...
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“Hey, you don’t have to post this or anything, but I wanted to tell you...”
– A poster to Vale’s tumblr.
Makes our blog have meaning.
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Family Art Therapy
Yesterday at family art therapy, the therapist asked us to draw an abstract about our family. Each of us grabbed some crayons or markers and went to work. It turned out, for the most part, 5 of the 6 family members there drew somewhat the same thing; symbolic representations of each family member. I actually inserted my version of it below. It’s my thoughts on each family member colored in...
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Family Art Therapy
Yesterday at family art therapy, the therapist asked us to draw an abstract about our family. Each of us grabbed some crayons or markers and went to work. It turned out, for the most part, 5 of the 6 family members there drew somewhat the same thing; symbolic representations of each family member. I actually inserted my version of it below. It’s my thoughts on each family member colored...
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A second question
Last night I dreamed that his father brought him to me and he had a very large chunk of flesh taken out of his wrist. We concluded it was a suicide attempt so we had to take him to the hospital. When he walked away I could see three angry red slices on the back of his thigh. When will I stop having nightmares about my son’s cutting?
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A second question
Last night I dreamed that his father brought him to me and he had a very large chunk of flesh taken out of his wrist. We concluded it was a suicide attempt so we had to take him to the hospital. When he walked away I could see three angry red slices on the back of his thigh. When will I stop having nightmares about my son’s cutting?
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Cracked
Vale hasn’t made good choices today and I’ve had (what I think is) my first anxiety attack. Does that mean I’m loosing it?
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Cracked
Vale hasn’t made good choices today and I’ve had (what I think is) my first anxiety attack.
Does that mean I’m loosing it?
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No posts? A Mini Vaca
Hello Faithful Readers, I know you don’t wake every morning with bated breath wondering what’s going on at the FTB~FTM blog. I realize that your day isn’t structured around our familial ups and down. I understand you all have lives! But I do feel that I need to give some type of accounting as to why we were gone from Tumblr for a few days. Our family took a much needed mini vaca! Simply put,...
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No posts? A Mini Vaca
Hello Faithful Readers,
I know you don’t wake every morning with bated breath wondering what’s going on at the FTB~FTM blog.
I realize that your day isn’t structured around our familial ups and down.
I understand you all have lives!
But I do feel that I need to give some type of accounting as to why we were gone from Tumblr for a few days. Our family took a much needed...
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Run From the Herd: The gift that keeps on giving →
runfromtheherd:
I wonder how many people really understand what a gift Tumblr is? I can’t tell you how much I needed something like this when I was an adolescent/young adult. The things that I struggled with, I struggled with alone. I kept journals for a time, but I still had to write in code, in case somebody…
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Run From the Herd: The gift that keeps on giving
Link: Run From the Herd: The gift that keeps on giving runfromtheherd: I wonder how many people really understand what a gift Tumblr is? I can’t tell you how much I needed something like this when I was an adolescent/young adult. The things that I struggled with, I struggled with alone. I kept journals for a time, but I still had to write in code, in case somebody…
mylovetogive asked: I just found this, and I wanted to thank you for being so candid and open about everything here. It makes me wish I had a supportive family who I could have disclosed to about both my self-injury and eating disorder, instead of it being completely ignored even when it was discovered. If i had a mother who cared as you seem to ... well, I do think I would be recovered now, instead of in the grip of...
Question from a reader:
Question: I just found this, and I wanted to thank you for being so candid and open about everything here. It makes me wish I had a supportive family who I could have disclosed to about both my self-injury and eating disorder, instead of it being completely ignored even when it was discovered. If i had a mother who cared as you seem to … well, I do think I would be recovered now, instead of...
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Someone posted...
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Correcting a disservice
I was convicted about a disservice I had done to all our readers. I talk so much about the anxiety and the strain but so little about the sustaining faith that gets us through it. That just can’t be. So over the next few Sundays I’m going to post something about what God is doing in us and through us, even in the midst of all this heart ache.
Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He...
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Correcting a disservice
I was convicted about a disservice I had done to all our readers. I talk so much about the anxiety and the strain but so little about the sustaining faith that gets us through it. That just can’t be. So over the next few Sundays I’m going to post something about what God is doing in us and through us, even in the midst of all this heart ache. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He reminds me...
sophia113-deactivated20110724 asked: tell vale I'm sorry it hurts so much. :/ I cut too. It can be SO hard
Question from a reader
Question: tell vale I’m sorry it hurts so much. :/ I cut too. It can be SO hard I will be sure to tell him, the support means a lot. It is so hard, and I think as a parent, knowing that there is such a long road ahead is so frightening. We are doing all we can for him, but I wish there was a magic pill to make it all go away. Thank you so much for writing. Please feel free to do so...
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A Selfish Post (whining, you are warned)
Vale had a stumble. Now, honestly… I expected that. Cutting is a vicious demon, and it isn’t easily shaken. But the one thing about dealing with Vale is that he takes his integrity seriously and he has always been really honest. Until this week. Vale has gone two weeks without cutting, or so I thought. Today he was off all day. So tired, only wanting to sleep. He didn’t have a fever, I...
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A Selfish Post (whining, you are warned)
Vale had a stumble. Now, honestly… I expected that. Cutting is a vicious demon, and it isn’t easily shaken. But the one thing about dealing with Vale is that he takes his integrity seriously and he has always been really honest. Until this week.
Vale has gone two weeks without cutting, or so I thought. Today he was off all day. So tired, only wanting to sleep. He didn’t...
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A Facebook Page =)
Well to expand our audience, I have sent up a facebook page for FTB~FTM. I was wondering if you would be willing to like it? If I can get 25 likes I can have my own page name. After that we’ll see how it grows all on its own, but I would really appreciate if you would help this blog page reach more folks by liking it on facebook. You can find the link on the right side of my blog.
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A Facebook Page =)
Well to expand our audience, I have sent up a facebook page for FTB~FTM. I was wondering if you would be willing to like it? If I can get 25 likes I can have my own page name. After that we’ll see how it grows all on its own, but I would really appreciate if you would help this blog page reach more folks by liking it on facebook. You can find the link on the right side of my blog. I’m really...
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“I kept on hiding in the bathroom for about five minutes, but my mom made me come...”
– Vale, on appearing in a t-shirt, exposing his arms, in front of his tutor.
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“I kept on hiding in the bathroom for about five minutes, but my mom made me come...”
– Vale, on appearing in a t-shirt, exposing his arms, in front of his tutor.
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Fallout: someone else speaks..
dreamingwakingrelapsing:
The worst part of being a cutter is getting blood all over your clothes.
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Fallout: someone else speaks..
dreamingwakingrelapsing: The worst part of being a cutter is getting blood all over your clothes.
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Fallout: Sleep (or the lack thereof) pt. 2
Why write a second post on the lack of sleep? There is a different level for the lack of sleep I experience. I’m not trying to say that mine is worse or better than any other member of the family, but if I could compare the lack of sleep to Dante’s vision of Hell, my lack is spiraled down lower in the descending rings. To say it’s only my quality of sleep that is impacted would be a gross...
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Fallout: Sleep (or the lack thereof) pt. 2
Why write a second post on the lack of sleep? There is a different level for the lack of sleep I experience. I’m not trying to say that mine is worse or better than any other member of the family, but if I could compare the lack of sleep to Dante’s vision of Hell, my lack is spiraled down lower in the descending rings. To say it’s only my quality of sleep that is impacted...
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Fallout: Sleep (or the lack thereof) pt.1
One of our most pressing problems is the lack of sleep. We are one of the most tired families I know. Sleep is a major problem around here. No one is getting enough of it. Sleep is affected by trauma, at least in our experience, in many ways. Anxiety is running rampant around this place. The anxiety is played out in a number of different ways, but mostly in distractability; either by not...
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Fallout: Sleep (or the lack thereof) pt.1
One of our most pressing problems is the lack of sleep. We are one of the most tired families I know. Sleep is a major problem around here. No one is getting enough of it.
Sleep is affected by trauma, at least in our experience, in many ways. Anxiety is running rampant around this place. The anxiety is played out in a number of different ways, but mostly in distractability; either by not...
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Fallout: The whole family
As I begin this series on fallout, I think the very first thing I would like to point out is that it affects *everyone*. I find that it is one of the biggest misconceptions people on the outside have is that this trauma is just impacting Vale and his parents. That is so ridiculous! How could we possibly keep such a thing contained to just a few people when we live together? It escapes me how...
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Fallout: The whole family
As I begin this series on fallout, I think the very first thing I would like to point out is that it affects *everyone*. I find that it is one of the biggest misconceptions people on the outside have is that this trauma is just impacting Vale and his parents. That is so ridiculous! How could we possibly keep such a thing contained to just a few people when we live together? It escapes me how...
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A favorite
No.. it’s not a post about fallout, like I said I was going to write.. still going to do this. But I thought I would post something slightly different. Vale and his “twin” Payne are close. The twin is in quotes because they aren’t really twins. Vale was adopted, Payne is homegrown. They are a little less than 6 months apart. But they do look a like, and they are very similar in personality....
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A favorite
No.. it’s not a post about fallout, like I said I was going to write.. still going to do this. But I thought I would post something slightly different.
Vale and his “twin” Payne are close. The twin is in quotes because they aren’t really twins. Vale was adopted, Payne is homegrown. They are a little less than 6 months apart. But they do look a like, and they are very...
